Sometimes we need to break… open

on May 29, 2021

Sometimes we need to break open, in order to find and create a new way back to ourSelves. It can be hard to know why as it’s happening. It can be painful as hell. But if we are willing, and sometimes even when we are not, to surrender to this dissolution, we will more easily see the  beauty along the way. We will more easily know Grace in all it’s forms.   *This photo is one of my local tree friends.  Thank you for the reminder sweet green one. 

The climb- 4/23/15

on May 23, 2021

From April 23, 2021… This photo is from three years ago today, apparently with a terrible camera compared to today’s phone standards, and during a three week hospital stay. I did not know it at the time, but this was the start of my second dance with MAC. I was the sickest I had ever been. Down to 30% of my lung function. This round with MAC would become two of three and it would be part of the start that brought me to Denver. The fact that I was climbing the stairs at this moment was a big deal. I was working my way back to a baseline that I didn’t know if I would be able to get to, but had determination and hope. I love that the lotus is behind me.  I, like the lotus, have found my way through the muck and mud time and time again, to rise, to rise and breath above the surface, and to blossom.  The lotus and I are deep soul friends.  And yes, that’s me in a mask, six years...

May and CF

on May 16, 2021

May is Cystic Fibrosis awareness month.  The only thing that means for those who actually live with CF is that May is a designated time where multiple people at once dedicate time to educate and intentionally share and talk about it. I’m grateful for this. I am grateful that there is a designated month where this is acknowledged and happens. I’m grateful that so many take the time to share and fundraise. I’m grateful that because of this that there might be someone else that I encounter in the world who might actually know a little something about what the heck Cystic Fibrosis is. Because of May’s dedication, someone who hadn’t before, might have even the smallest glimpse of understanding about CF. It means that there might be less chance of encountering someone who says, “Oh yeah, I know what that is, my sister caught that when she was in...

I think it matters.

on May 7, 2021

I think it matters that we get outside, look up and know the vastness of sky. I think it matters that we notice when the air kisses our skin, or the wind blows through our hair. I think it matters that we take the time to acknowledge the ground beneath our feet, notice the steady holding that is there all the time. I think it matters that we bring our toes and hands and bodies to the rivers and lakes and oceans. I think it matters that we stop and feel the rays of the sun that penetrate our skin and warm our bodies. The time that it takes to step away from “what needs to get done”, so that we can have ourSelf reflected back by Nature matters. All we need to do is dare to let ourselves have some conscious time outside to re-member. Remember our spaciousness, our wildness, our belonging, our own internal swirls, waves, pulse, and swish, our miraculous illumination of being. I...

Crying

on May 2, 2021

  Sometimes I feel like crying. Crying for all the hurt. Crying for all the goodness. Crying for Love, as She moves.

Sounding as a practice…

on Apr 24, 2021

Sounding… The practice of using our voices to heal and engage goes back, well, probably as far as we do as a species. Through Continuum, I have deepened into my understanding of how I can use sound to meet myself in more and more subtle ways. I have also seen how this ability to explore and engage through sounding in particular has helped me to discover and know things that go well beyond this body. So today, I thought I would share some thoughts on sounding.   We are creatures of connection, sounding is one of the ways we can do this. It is one of the ways we touch the world, offering something of ourselves. It is one of the ways we exchange with life inside our own living system and each other- through voice, body sounds, or vibration. Whether we make any vocalization or not, our bodies are already sounding.  If a body is alive, that body is making sound. Whether that is in a...

Listening, Loving, Honoring

on Apr 18, 2021

I’ve been doing some healing work. In one of my “sessions” in the tub the other day I asked myself the question, “What am I planting now?”. Here’s what came: Relationship with my womb… for me. One of listening, communion, safety, trust. I’m building trust now by even taking the time to do this. Making the time for a bath when I need a break, instead of pushing through and getting out to get groceries. I’m building trust and faith that when I take the time to listen, what needs to will get done. I’m also intentionally connecting my heart to my womb. They have operated, or not operated, separately for some time. I am cultivating safety and pleasure and strength in my system. I am listening, loving, honoring. Suddenly, with this acknowledgement I see pink petals appear and begin to wrap around my womb.  I see green, bright green,...

Integration

on Apr 9, 2021

  Integration, learning new things, new ways to love and be and interact. Work your magic beautiful be-ing. Work your magic. Taking in what serves, and leaving the rest. Endless love and respect. You are beauty-full.