In This Little Room

on Dec 19, 2020

In this little room. In this little room surrounded by concrete and brick. In this little room I have found Heaven and Earth, Connection and Freedom. In this little room, reaching out to the Whole, in Honesty, in Vulnerability. In Strength and Prayer and Dance and Song. In THIS little room I have found myself and you and All. Connected and apart. Connected and apart. We are. We are dancing life forever. Unbridled, free, you, and me. In all of our little, big, connected rooms, 1 and 10, 000. Ever more.


on Dec 13, 2020

my Sound, my Dance, IS my Prayer that words could never capture.

Holy Beautiful.

on Dec 8, 2020

Holy shit. Holy shit there is so much beauty. There is so much to be curious about. So much wonder. There is so much. There is so much. There is so so much. We have a choice to notice. What have you harvested from the day that you are willing to take a stand for? Take a stand for out on the world floor. Planting at the speed of trust. Planting at the speed of trust. Breath in. Breath out. Your prayer circles the world, IS the world. You are earth, water, fire, air. Space wide open holding it all. Holy shit. Holy shit. It’s all holy holy beautiful shit.     *Inspired by the depths, dance with the elements, and movement with Susan Harper and Michael Molin-Skelton. Michael’s words:  “What have you harvested from the day that you are willing to take a stand for? Take a stand for out on the world floor.” “…Planting at the speed of...

Being With Autumn

on Nov 28, 2020

This Autumn I have gotten to see the brilliance of my own leaves, the blazing reds, oranges, and yellows within my own soul.  I have also come into awareness of where it’s time to let go. Let go of what I had been putting so much energy into maintaining. I’m waking up, or maybe more truthfully, I’ve known, but am finally admitting to myself and acknowledging the toll of those places where I try so hard, but that give little back.  It’s time. It’s time to let go. It’s time to let go of what no longer serves so that I can go deeper without so many efforts pulling me from focusing my energy within. Instead, just be quiet, cultivate the places that could lead to the fruits of the next spring of my life. Release release release release release… be brave enough to let go, be brave enough to be naked in the truth of myself. Then see what happens in...

Fluid Strength- Inspiration from the Animas

on Nov 19, 2020

One of my loves and passions is teaching Continuum, or rather I should say sharing vs teaching as truly, it is our own fluid intelligence that is the teacher in Continuum.  In some of my more recent series we’ve looked at resiliency, developed deep listening and surrender, and in the one I led in September, we explored our fluid strength. The theme for “Fluid Strength” came to me as I was finishing writing another workshop.  I knew that would be the title of the next series, but I did not yet know what the series would look like or the exact direction it would take (more lessons from water…). Rick, the pup, and I were able to take a little long weekend escape to the mountains and on this rainy lucky morning I found myself up early with no one else around. So, I offered myself the rare treat of stepping out into the world before doing treatments. I walked myself down...

Lost In The Light

on Jun 22, 2020

Lost in the light. Lost in the light. We are all just lost in the light. With all it’s rays and shades and variances. Not recognizing the red in the orange, the blue in the purple. Trying to find our way. We are all just lost in the light.

Blanket of Tired-Trikafta Day 2

on Feb 17, 2020

Journal entry written Feb 1, 2020 I’m feeling so very tired this morning after my morning dose. It’s a different type of tired than I’m used to though. It’s not a worn out coughing all night tired. It’s instead, a deep, warming from inside my head down through my chest blanket of tired. I’m imagining that maybe there’s a relaxation coming over me. A settling of my nervous system, maybe for the first time ever. Maybe my nervous system is saying, “Oh!  Something helpful is happening.  Something is unlocking.  I can come down now.” After 40 years of unfitting, half made, unmoving puzzle pieces, maybe this relaxation wave layer that I’m feeling is actually a reconfiguration leading to relief.  

Trikafta Eve (or so I thought)

on Feb 14, 2020

I’ve been looking back through my journal, deciding what I want to share and what I still want to hold close, still just for me right now. This entry is from the night before I thought I was starting Trikafta, Jan 28, 2020.  Turns out I didn’t start for two more days due to a body that wasn’t doing so great said planned morning. Alas, here’s the entry from what I thought at the time was my “Trikafta Eve”. Jan 28, 2020 I’m sitting here in my bedroom, looking at a box of Trikafta across from me on my night stand. It is my first box.  The co-pay is $0.  That is unreal to me.  I do not yet know if that will be my monthly co-pay this year or if that will change with the months and as I move in and out of different levels of coverage.  I was told by the pharmacist that the co-pay would be anywhere from $0-4,000.  The fact that it is currently is $0...