Journal entry written Feb 1, 2020 I’m feeling so very tired this morning after my morning dose. It’s a different type of tired than I’m used to though. It’s not a worn out coughing all night tired. It’s instead, a deep, warming from inside my head down through my chest blanket of tired. I’m imagining that maybe there’s a relaxation coming over me. A settling of my nervous system, maybe for the first time ever. Maybe my nervous system is saying, “Oh! Something helpful is happening. Something is unlocking. I can come down now.” After 40 years of unfitting, half made, unmoving puzzle pieces, maybe this relaxation wave layer that I’m feeling is actually a reconfiguration leading to relief.