Coming through some incredibly challenging weeks in the medical system. Last night, this meant responding to e-mails until after 11:30 and then up all night with mind, with anger, perhaps a more accurate description is frustration mixed with disappointment.  There has been much I have not shared, I think it could actually potentially be beneficial to share once I can in terms of making, at least our local system, better.  And right now I do not have the “juice”. After about 1 hour of sleep, I think around 2am, I re-awoke to more mind, more frustration.  I could feel my body buzzing with something(s)…anger, what to do next, other places where I feel anger, the ridiculousness of what I have witnessed, the voice that I keep in line in order to be polite and respectful that actually just wants to scream.  I could not turn this buzz off.  The cough was there, kept going,...