Denver Animal Shelter

on Jan 14, 2023

I haven’t been great about keeping up on here. Part of this is I haven’t really had the juice or desire to be on social media. Part is there has been other things needing my attention on the computer and then anything I have left over I don’t want to give to being in front of the screen any longer. I make notes to myself and actually have things pop up all the time that I DO want to write or share about (often at 3am, so not the most ideal time). I have perspectives I want to share, books, course ideas, and so many cool and useful things that I want to offer out into the world emerging all the time. I’m hoping once I get a few things set up for Vandemic I can come back to offering out some of the things I most love again. Or, I need to figure out how to somehow do it anyway. This morning, against all logic and the needs of my “to do” list, I’m...

Coming home…

on Sep 12, 2021

It was strange this past week to come home and not have Jaz here in the appartement. Something about the arriving back home made her absence more tangible again. I actually felt her a lot while I was away.  It was really wonderful to feel her travel with me in a different form.  Her strong queeny spirit made herself known on multiple occasions. I’m so grateful for all the little signs. I’m also so grateful to still have Bahni in our lives.  This helps a lot. There were a number of times we thought she might actually go before her sister, but even after being through so much, our little Bahnster just keeps going.  Cracked canine’s upon arrival, first benign mamarry tumors and surgery, then heart disease, three different types of cancer, a bulging disc that debilitated her for weeks, hip displaysia, some unexplained type of seizure occurrences, and all the testing and...

Listening, Loving, Honoring

on Apr 18, 2021

I’ve been doing some healing work. In one of my “sessions” in the tub the other day I asked myself the question, “What am I planting now?”. Here’s what came: Relationship with my womb… for me. One of listening, communion, safety, trust. I’m building trust now by even taking the time to do this. Making the time for a bath when I need a break, instead of pushing through and getting out to get groceries. I’m building trust and faith that when I take the time to listen, what needs to will get done. I’m also intentionally connecting my heart to my womb. They have operated, or not operated, separately for some time. I am cultivating safety and pleasure and strength in my system. I am listening, loving, honoring. Suddenly, with this acknowledgement I see pink petals appear and begin to wrap around my womb.  I see green, bright green,...

Lost In The Light

on Jun 22, 2020

Lost in the light. Lost in the light. We are all just lost in the light. With all it’s rays and shades and variances. Not recognizing the red in the orange, the blue in the purple. Trying to find our way. We are all just lost in the light.

Crazy Ass Snowman Love Flowers

on Dec 27, 2018

It’s Jib Jab season in the Tolberty household. It’s that time of  year where I get to make cartoons out of us and share it with our friends and family, like it or not. It’s just normally a fun silly way to spread cheer.  I probably watch them the most laughing my head off hahahaha. The one I picked this year was not even actually my favorite, not a great song or funny mouth movements, although I do have to say that this shot IS pretty funny: I tried on all sorts of goofy ones, but in the end, it was this one that won. Here’s why: I felt the resonance with this silly little cartoon. I could feel it as this perfect little parabole for our recent life. I could feel the resonance with the seemingly “big stuff” that has loomed. The scary stuff where the automatic response can be, “Shit!  Run!!”. I felt MAC.  I felt me putting the smile on the...