Journal entry written Feb 1, 2020
I’m feeling so very tired this morning after my morning dose.
It’s a different type of tired than I’m used to though.
It’s not a worn out coughing all night tired.
It’s instead, a deep, warming from inside my head down through my chest blanket of tired.
I’m imagining that maybe there’s a relaxation coming over me.
A settling of my nervous system, maybe for the first time ever.
Maybe my nervous system is saying, “Oh! Something helpful is happening. Something is unlocking. I can come down now.”
After 40 years of unfitting, half made, unmoving puzzle pieces, maybe
this
relaxation wave layer
that I’m feeling
is actually
a
reconfiguration
leading to
relief.