Blanket of Tired-Trikafta Day 2

on Feb 17, 2020

Journal entry written Feb 1, 2020

I’m feeling so very tired this morning after my morning dose.

It’s a different type of tired than I’m used to though.
It’s not a worn out coughing all night tired.
It’s instead, a deep, warming from inside my head down through my chest blanket of tired.

I’m imagining that maybe there’s a relaxation coming over me.
A settling of my nervous system, maybe for the first time ever.
Maybe my nervous system is saying, “Oh!  Something helpful is happening.  Something is unlocking.  I can come down now.”

After 40 years of unfitting, half made, unmoving puzzle pieces, maybe
relaxation wave layer
that I’m feeling
is actually
leading to